a good day?

so is today, as i wished yesterday night, a good day?

i wish my answer is in the affirmative. however, i have mixed feelings about today. sigh... it's been a while since i'm truly 100% happy. is happiness so elusive? hmm...

anyways the earlier part of the day is quite humdrum with some minor annoyances. and also i had to scrape my plans to bake a cake because i was missing the star of the show - good quality dark chocolate. well i had some cooking chocolate but being a true blue choconnoisseur (wah i created a new word!!! anyways to all you plebian non-choco fans out there, it means A person of informed and discriminating taste of chocolates haha) i won't compromise the taste of my chocolate brownies. so in the end, i postpone my plans to bake.

anyways initially i was SOOOOO excited because i thought i could meet most of my high school friends today. ^-^ you see today is the day i'm supposed to collect Chiann's photobook from sMACk and bring it to all our friends (those who kap funn) to sign... unfortunately... it took two hours plus for my book to arrive. our initial agreed time was 2-3 pm. then they say cannot... ask me to go at 6.30 pm. however, it was already 8.30++ by the time i got my book. To occupy my time i loiter around the Village Grocers for a little while... doing research for my final presentation and i ended up buying some bread and good bitter chocolates (yummy and increased my dopamine levels for a few seconds). anyways because of this delay i could not make it in time to find coreen, ann and kai li. I guess kai li is not happy with me? because i should have informed her sooner about this thing (the Book) and not make everything so last min. What she says is right so i felt really shitty about myself.

So for 2 hours i sat there in the waiting room and they had on these sappy canto love songs, you know those that i like to sing when we go karaoke. Anyways.. i was emotional at that time because i ffk my close frenz and my hw is not finished and ailyn's mission statement is not done and i was so anxious to go home cuz i dun wanna drive home late during this 'special' month and furthermore one of the staff is like couldn't care less and was saying things like 'aiya... dun so gan cheong lah..." HELLO? u guys just made me waste time sitting here doing nothing!!! and i was supposed to meet up my frens like wat, 2 hours ago? okay anyways... those sappy love songs made me cry. then! i realised that it is a glass room... and people from starbucks next door would notice me and think i'm psycho or schizo. so in the end i restrained myself and salvaged my last shreds of dignity.

but on the bright side, the room was a really nice and comfortable place to chill out and also i did like 12 sudoku puzzles on my phone, and i completed them real fast too hehe *bangga*

anyhows i reached may's hse at 9.30-ish after scraping my plans to drop by pin and voon's place for them to sign the book. sorry guys. anyway, may and her mom are so kind to offer me chee cheong funn and spirulina oat drink cuz i din have dinner. thank u ^-^ i stayed on to 'decorate' the book but around 10 i was really really desperate to go home cause i am so scared some things will catch me. i really really want to go home but may was on the phone and we still have not finish writing the messages from everyone. *sniff sniff* but in the end, i went home at around 10.30++ which is not too late la.

anyway on another topic i think may has a wonderful happy family... ^-^ one day i'm going to have my own happy family too! with a lot of dogs hehe emm.. maybe one for each family member and hamsters for the maid/s. okay i'm getting carried away. hehehe

oh today's my first time driving alone so congrats to me! hehe ^-^ but it din feel like tt big a deal lah as it felt quite natural and normal to me. however, mummy was like 'wow that's an achievement' 'i'm so glad u're back in one piece' 'i'm proud of you' etc. sigh i love my mom... i guess it's not easy for her to let me drive alone cause she's worried bout my safety, but as they say, 'to love someone, you must learn to let go.' so i'm proud of her too cause she is trying to 'let go' and trust me. but i wasn't really in a celebratory mood just now as i was bawling my lungs out and crying myself silly as soon as i reach home. okay actually i was distracted for awhile by the kinda cute neighbour kid who arrived home the same time as me hehe =P he is younger than me but dropout from school edi... so sad... last time i used to bump into him after school ends because although he's from Maluri and i'm from SAB our schools are adjacent to each other. so sayang lah... wasted a young talent. Our education system SUCKS! they should revamp it to prevent kids from dropping out and create better students!!!

anyway, i digress. back to just now. as i was saying earlier i was crying like shit when i got home. i am so tired of everything. actually i was just thinking of making a photobook for chiann so she has something for her to remember us and all the memories we share... i was just thinking wouldn't it be nice for her to have something to flip through during the plane ride to Russia and reminisce about her school days and all her friends back home. but i keep facing problems when i make this book so i realised i have either really bad organising skills or bad time management. sigh. must improve myself.

anyways i sorta like cheered up after that cuz my sis, Gillian gave me some stickers to decorate my phones *giggles* and i wrote ailyn's mission statement for Krispy Kreme. That fired me up because i love doin these kinda stuffs ^-^ but i'm sooooooooo craving for donuts now!!! argh...............! so hungry.... must have donuts.........

because we don't have Krispy Kremes here (erm i've heard that the very expensive and demanding franchising contract seems to be the reason preventing Malaysians getting their grubby hands on those hot, yummy donuts... dunno whether it's true.) i really wanna eat Big Apple doughnut... they have this choco-donut claimed to be Homer's favourite flavour. i hope sharon and reen agrees to our Friday night out at the Curve! then i can have me donut!!!

aiya i blog too much liao... good nite blog... going to go do my homework liao... so nitez...!

p.s. thnx to pin for msg-ing me and lyn n reen for chattin with me. feel cheer-up-ed heheh muacks! love u guys. btw eh reen i noe u wun read my blog de lah cuz u're so busy with ur one hundred million admirers but special thnx to u cuz remind me of jason.... wah.... so shuai! heheheh